It’s roughly 1:00 a.m., I’m leaving for Nebraska in about four hours and I am yet to sleep.
It’s because it’s Monday night (well now technically Tuesday morning) and I had my show at Second City a mere few hours ago. I’ve learned by now that I can’t ever sleep after a show, so most times I don’t even try. I’ve also figured out why so many comedians and performers drink so much every night, it’s because you have to if you want any chance of going to bed. It’s damn hard coming down off of that high.
Tonight was a good show. The crowd was into it. The tampon jokes were killing. The homo-erotic lines were spot on. It was just a great night that was over in the blink of an eye.
Whenever I get done with a good show I catch myself thinking how I wish I could do this every night. But of course everyone on that Second City stage tonight thinks that. That’s why we’re all there, after all. The shitty truth is that the percentage of us who will actually figure out a way to get paid to do comedy is slim to none. We’ve all picked a pretty hard industry to try to excel in, damn it.
Today SNL announced they hired a twenty year old comedian to their line-up and it sent my Facebook world into a shit storm. All of the comedians I’m virtual friends with seemed to have an opinion about this, most of them being negative. Why? Because as comedians we’re all just a bunch of insecure little assholes sometimes. And I mean that in the most lovingly way possible. Why else would we feel the need to get on a stage with a mic and beg people to laugh us? Like me!!! Like me!!!
So it only makes sense that when we see a twenty year old get hired to do something like SNL it’s a tough pill to swallow. Because it reminds all of us that we’re not getting hired by SNL.
But Pete Davidson (the guy they hired) is so damn good you just gotta swallow that pill anyway. If you like stand-up, you should google him and watch some of his videos. When you get discovered that young there’s a reason for it.
And when you’re still twenty-seven writing dear diary blog posts at 1:00 a.m. with a plate full of homemade nachos in your lap, there’s a reason for that as well… You’ve gotten a little bit off course. And you might also be kind of a loser. So stop eating your feelings and go write a book or something.
And this is why I shouldn’t write posts at 1:00 a.m. because it’s just turned into a ramble. Okay, thanks for listening. I’m going to sign off now and catch up on some baby reveal videos I’ve missed on Facebook this past week. What’s it going to be….. BOY or GIRL? The suspense makes me giddy every time.
Girl, you are very talented! I'm sure we'll all be seeing your name somewhere soon
You are talented and funny and I look forward to the day when you are famous and i can tell my friends I followed you when you were "just" a blogger!! xxxx
I think everyone just has a different path to get where they're going. but damn 21? sometimes life's just easier for others. In my eyes you're pretty successful. so just know that!
Personally – I think you are amazing and you aren't giving yourself enough credit here. Just because you aren't on SNL doesn't mean you aren't successful – look at this amazing blog you have built and how large it is, look at your awesome life in Chicago – you are doing things that most people don't EVER get the chance to do. You've got this – and if you don't ever get hired for SNL that just means that something equally as awesome is heading your way.
Second City is such a great door opener though. SNL seems to like to pick people with that in their background, you know, so never stop dreaming 🙂 <3
A good ramble! Super glad you're still at it!! You dont give yourself half the credit!
Making the effort to watch Pete Davidson's videos, as well as giving him support, shows a lot of class on your part. Combining that with your willingness to work on something you love only indicates good things about your attitude towards an industry where it is so hard to achieve what most people would consider success! Don't worry about rambling–sometimes you've just got to get the feels out!
Don't judge yourself like this, if you are not getting hired now that doesn't mean you are not good enough. There is a whole stock market trading branch based on picking stock that is being traded under its value, think about it this way : ))
Your rambles are why I come back every day to read your posts! Please don't stop because then I'd have to entertain myself on the daily and ain't nobody got time fo dat.
We caught a show on the mainstage at Second City when we were in Chicago over Labor Day weekend. It was hilarious – my husband actually did a spit take because he had a mouth full of water and couldn't hold the laugh in. They were all so good, and I hope you know being on stage there at all puts you in a league most people admire. Keep going!
I love that high after something goes well. The time in between while your chasing your next high is the worse. Always wondering if it will ever happen again.
While that time sucks, I take chasing the high over any many other 9-5 boring nonsense any day.